14 Days of Self Love ~ Day Ten: Is it Worth Risking Everything to Be True to Your Heart by Pace Smith

I’m so honoured to have the wonderful Pace of PaceandKyeli.com sharing her story of self-love today (and you’ll hear from Kyeli this week too)!  Let’s get inspired by Pace today as she shares that journey of coming to a point where you need to follow your heart, even when its a big risk.

Choosing to love myself wasn’t a decision I made once, and then it stuck forever. It’s a decision I make every day.

Each day, I choose to fall in love with myself all over again. And like any skill, it gets easier the more you practice.

Ten years ago

Why can’t I just be happy the way I am? Why can’t I be happy with the body I was born with? Why can’t I be happy with the gender I’ve lived as for the past 25 years?

It’s not that big a deal. I’ve been fine with a male body and a male gender role for my entire life so far. It would be way easier to just stick with that. I don’t want to freak out my family, friends, and coworkers. I don’t want to inconvenience anyone.

It’s comfortable. I’m strong. I can take it.

But… but it just doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel true to myself. My true self is female, and I want to align my body and my life with my true self.

Is it worth risking everything to be true to my heart?

Yes. Yes it is.

Four years ago

Why can’t I just be happy working at this programming job?

I love my coworkers. I solve interesting problems. They pay me gobs of money.

It’s comfortable. I’m strong. I can take it.

But… but it just doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel true to myself. My heart lights up when I help others get in touch with their hearts and live their lives wholeheartedly. My brain lights up when I program, but my heart doesn’t.

Is it worth risking everything to be true to my heart?

Yes. Yes it is.

Six months ago

Why can’t I just be happy living in one pl-

Fuck this. Let’s hit the road.

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Pace Smith is a starry-eyed queer spiritual nomad who loves to play Dance Dance Revolution. She’s happily married to Kyeli, her partner in life and in business, and together they live a nomadic life RVing across the country, helping others live wild crazy meaningful lives.  You can find her at PaceAndKyeli.com.