Dear 35

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Dear 35.

I’ve been nervous about arriving at your doorstep.

You are a number that gets tossed around, especially for us women, as an age where our fertility heads downhill.  As a single lady who feels like being a mama is part of her life path, it was feeling overwhelming to have you near.  As though I’ve failed at something by reaching you childless, though I know in my heart that is not true at all.

I’m starting to realize though, that you are not so scary after all.

The 30’s so far have been my favourite decade of life yet, so I shouldn’t doubt that you would follow its lead.

Now that you and I are hanging out for the next 360 days, I’m holding onto hope.  I have a few big dreams I’d like to take action on and I most definitely need hope in order to get me towards them this year.  Plus, it feels like holding onto hope and having faith is exactly the right course of action.  Right now I’m on a trip on Vancouver Island to Ucluelet and Tofino and I brought along a tarot deck.  We’ve each been pulling a card each day and last nights card, the star, spoke of how I feel about you 35.  It reminded me to have faith in the future.

On the day you and I became one 35, I gathered with a few friends and giggled our way through breakfast, including sharing a brunch brownie, 4 forks nibbling away at it.  I got my first ever mani/pedi (evidence seen in the above photo) and then gathered again with a few friends for some pizza, gelato and sunset walking.  It was a simple, lighthearted day that really felt like I could live in the moment.  I’m hoping that is a sign of what is ahead for this year.

So, 35.  I don’t know what is ahead, but I’m going to follow the cards and hold onto faith that you and I have each other’s best interests at heart.

Love Vivienne

  • sperlygirlJuly 28, 2012 - 12:28 pm

    buon compleanno vivienne! 35 was a great one for me – i am getting used to 39, we have only shared a few weeks together so far, and it sounds soooooo up there. but i think i am gonna dig her. i figure at 39, you have a little more latitude to do things “your” way – and relish it. here’s to figuring it all out together….warmly, sReplyCancel

  • GenniferJuly 28, 2012 - 3:59 pm

    Absolutely beautiful. Love this!ReplyCancel

  • ElizabethJuly 28, 2012 - 5:22 pm

    The happiest of 35s to you, Vivienne! May it be full of love and joy and magic. I am three months into the same year and so far, I must say, it is my favorite year yet.ReplyCancel

  • SharonJuly 28, 2012 - 6:14 pm

    Happy birthday to you Vivienne! Sounds like a wonderful celebration with chocolate and a trip. Enjoy!


  • DianeJuly 28, 2012 - 8:13 pm

    Happy Birthday Vivienne. I hope this year is the brightest yet!ReplyCancel

  • Robin aka Gotham GirlJuly 29, 2012 - 11:37 am

    Happy Happy Day! Loved my thirties, loved my forties and now loving my fifties! It’s all good, just what you make of it!ReplyCancel

  • KristaJuly 29, 2012 - 5:08 pm

    Viv, your words hit me so hard. I will be 35 in a little over a month, and while my life path has been very different than yours, 35 still scares the crap out of me. I always thought I’d have all my shit figured out by this point in my life. It scares me because I fear letting myself down. I have so much more I wish I had done by now.

    I hope your birthday was a lovely one Viv!ReplyCancel

  • GerriJuly 30, 2012 - 11:17 am

    Happy Birthday dear Vivienne!!ReplyCancel